Awareness In Times Of Chaos
Awareness is a form of meditation, of being inspired, of triggering the emotion of peace, love, and freedom. Awareness, I believe, is the most powerful and sane experience that a living being can have, though I’ve never understood why is it so difficult to attain, but also, why is it so difficult for us to grasp and understand. To be aware is to be one with every thing and every living being; to be aware is our true nature, one of those experience that brings us nearer to what’s cosmic and astral. Since I learned about this term, I have devoured every books I found on the subject, and I tried to practice the exercise of being aware of my thoughts, feelings, actions, and whole body, of things and of my surrounding, of nature and of everything else . . . but every time I failed. I failed because of the too many uncomfortable things that surfaced to send me in the dimension of alienation. Thus, I had to abandon it, and accept the fact that I am not one of those monks or priests, or any other wonderful person who dedicate their life to the practice of self-mastery – it was not my path, for it is a path of dedication, patience, compassion, empathy, and understanding, and I, I only have minimal good and positive qualities, only Earthly legacies.
But then, by the force of circumstances, I had to find a way to save myself from drowning in the ocean of depression, and thus chose the self-help way; trying to apply everything I learned so as to get better. At the beginning it was very very difficult, but there was always something in me that encouraged me to persevere, and with time, years should I say, of practicing, of rise and fall, of the illusions of knowing, of crying, dramas, emotional wreck and disaster, patience and perseverance . . . slowly, I am now really starting to get it. I know that I will never write a book as Tolkien did, nor even be a nun, or a devoted practitioner; but I believe that practicing awareness will help me little by little to live a more healthier life, and become a more confident and enthusiastic writer. I am again telling you this, only because I think that it’s important for me, as well as for you, to recall the roads taken when there is a relapse; and what is more important here, it is the intent with which one does something, intent, and nothing else, intent is everything. Bad intent, even though how good the idea is, will fail, and doing things with good intent, no matter how bad that thing came out, or even if it was not well undertaken, things will magically turn out great.
Right now I only practice my awareness of nature, for this mental exercise supercharges my creative energy and gives me the necessary enthusiasm to go write something. For you to be aware of nature, put yourself in any position that you want – and because most of us are stuck at home because of the pandemic or any other type of turbulence, we’ll choose to look up at the sky, deeply . . . you look at that sky as if you were seeing it for the first time, with appreciative eyes, and then the clouds enter in that dance, and you find yourself being locked all together in a strange emotional way – if you feel that strangeness, then you are aware. The moment you feel that otherworldly feeling, a feeling that you’ve never felt before, a feeling that you can’t name, if you feel a vibration in your whole body, if you feel like crying with joy, then, it is it, it is Awareness. And then you continue everyday, and your feelings become more and more intense with each gaze, then, it’s not you that carry that sky and the clouds in your heart, but it’s the sky and clouds that carry you. Serendipity then enter inside of your dance, and randomly beautiful things start to happen, like, as soon as you look up at the sky, birds chirp, beautiful birds fly by, the clouds take beautiful shape, the stars start to blink at you, you start to matter, you start to get better. And it is the same for any other things and creatures that emanate from nature, and for a writer, or for any other artist and creatives, the imagination blends and suffuse with this awareness of existence, and inspiration ignites, your enthusiasm is recharged. Isn’t it wonderful and delicious to feel such kind of wonderment, and oneness with nature?
I just experienced enthusiasm right now, while writing this blog post. Have to say that my energy of these last days went in doing a lot of thinking, thus I was kind of struggling to write a blog post for tomorrow. But then I focused on the sound of the wind, for it’s a very windy day today, and there, I knew right away what to write, while my creative battery was recharged with the energy that comes from nature.
We are right in the horrific clutch of chaos, pandemia, divisions, alienation, death, threats, and strange happenings; the human collective consciousness is going through such trouble times – it is being torn apart, ripped, tested, and we feel it deep, inside our core, though we can’t name it, it’s being felt – events that portend bad omens, negativity and destruction . . . and creativity is going through some bad time. The good emotions that are in us are not getting the chance to bloom, for inside it is a prison of fear that’s taking the place, and we are unable to beam out positive energies that can counter all of these threats, to bloom out so much beautiful and perfumed flowers that it can stifle all of that ugliness and aches that we are are facing.
The hardship of change is turning us into something else, and we are forgetting to tap into the peaceful energies of nature; to be aware that awareness can help in times of chaos. Just look outside, at the nature that surrounds you, and you will feel that atmosphere of peace; I promise you that you’ll feel serenity.
If you want to learn more from spiritual teachers about awareness, just go on YouTube and search for ‘awareness’, I think that it’s a good start, something that is beneficial and positive for the human spirit and collectivity.